I’m a pretty strong person, the one you love. I can say I’m fine when you ask if I’m okay. You, the one I love, you’re so precious to me. I wanted to say thank you for your hesitant and cautious words. Even though I’ve been mentally preparing for a while, the reality of the separation didn’t hit me. It choked me, it choked me so much. I didn’t realize my dad’s shoulders were so small until I saw him cry. I prayed and promised to become a better person, but I wonder if I’m already a good person. I don’t know, no matter how hard I try, I don’t know. But the words you left behind are so warm that sometimes I delude myself into thinking I’m a good person.
I just want to freeze time in this moment. I want to cry out loud, but I’m afraid I’ll fall apart if I do, so I just wipe away the tears without even realizing it. I want to cry in my siblings’ arms, I miss you so much. Does grandma know? That so many people are offering comfort and sharing their hearts? She’ll definitely be grateful. She’ll be happy. Still, I’m fortunate that I can see. I’m grateful for this time when all the coincidences aligned.
I’m grateful that I can say my last goodbye. I’m grateful that I can hold my dad, mom, and our aunts tightly. I’m grateful that I can share my heart. If my dilated pupils have lost their light, it’s probably because I can’t hold you in my eyes. Come and fill my black irises with the light of you. I say I miss you once again. It’s so long. It’s too long. They say time is medicine, but it takes too long to receive that medicine. It’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay.
The weather is so nice. Yeah, there are cloudy days and days like this too. I hope my heart will be like today someday.
Come to think of it, about a year ago, I poured out these feelings. Time doesn’t wait, so I feel like I can’t stop. I want to be the best for you. So, I guess I’m using the excuse of responsibility to fill my heart without knowing my true feelings. It might take me a while to do what I need to do and empty out the love I’ve received. It’s not too late. If you believe in me, you know that. Thank you for being there for me when times were tough. I’ll get through it again with your warm words. I hope today’s dawn won’t be too long.
“Our ATINY sees us as if we’re babies. Even though I’m 26 years old now sometimes, our fans think I’m adorable? This is a bit embarrassing, but seeing ATINY treat us like this shows the love to ATEEZ. I feel that the love for us is truly extraordinary. I’m sure ATINY can tell some differences as well, but like when I first debuted, I still hold that same feeling and it’s never-changing. I love ATINY just as much as when I started. I’m feeling very shy, but I mean this from the bottom of my heart. I love you so much ATINY. Thank you so much for the past 5 years, and I promise that much more years are to come. I’ll give love and appriciate the love I receive. That’s the Seonghwa I will become.”
[231023] Twitter Update ATEEZ 5OTD Behind Photo | 5-Because we are with each other, we dream the same dream. ATEEZ who can run forward so far and in the future! On October 24, 2023, on the 5th anniversary, thank you for celebrating with us, ATINY❤
